Mustaches and Monologues

I realized tonight why I’m mad so much all of the time..

It’s because for so long I’ve been blaming others for the little things they do against me, when I’m the one getting away with the real immoralities.
I’m ruining my integrity and no one even sees it.

I feel about the same as Paul did writing to Timothy; “…of whom I am the worst.”
I’m such a hypocrite and I’m sorry for looking the other way when I shouldve been growing up and being a little bit more responsible.
The truth is that I still haven’t learned to look to God when I’m in need of Him, which is all the freaking time.

I’ve got a lot of growing to do and honestly I’m glad I haven’t been in a real relationship yet, because I would ruin everything.

I’m so immature and I’m so very very sorry for not being a better excuse for a human being.

I’m so very sorry..